Looking At The Past

"We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same."

- Anne Frank

I'm 16 now. As I sit here on the computer, I think, what was I do back then? Middle school was a very awkward time for me. I tried to be cool by wearing the small amount of Abercrombie clothes that I had. I talked to all the popular kids hoping I would be in the crowd one day. Well when 7th grade ended and I went to Three Fires for 8th (Highlander Way for 6th and 7th). I had to start over. No big deal, I kept the same close group of friends through 9th and 10th grade.

Today, The Strokes started playing on my itunes. This is when reality set in. In my English class, I sit next to one of those "popular" kids. Now, we are good friends. Both very much into music. We had a lot in common in then to but never realized it because we were both blinded by the hierarchy of Middle School politics. 

I don't have a best friend. But at least I'm happy. I wasn't happy in Middle School. I didn't have a best friend and was worried. I think I understand how things work now. It doesn't matter what you're doing or who it's with, as long as you're happy.

I think I'm finally happy.

Change, Change

These letters, my letters, are scrambled everywhere
Rearrange them, change them, I don’t care
This alphabet, my alphabet, is the reason that we met
Words followed by a shadow of you,
Staring under the sunny sky, blue.

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I am starting to come under the impression that your whole life isn't going to be the same for long periods at a time. Which has it's pros and cons. It makes life interesting, but is it good? Some people say change is good. But how can change always be so pleasant? I believe that there is change for the good and change for the bad. 

I think people fear change because they don't want to face something that is unknown. Understandable, yet stupid. Everyone has been afraid of some kind of change. . . feelings, appearances, weather, plans.  Everyone needs, in my opinon, to go through both negative and positive change. Change will change you [duh] but for the good, no matter what kind of change it may be. 

I need change.

Let It Be Known

The exit is this, you should believe me
Getting lost can't be any easier
Broken down, without the time

This will separate it, I hope you've had enough
This will complicate it, I'm losing my touch 

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48 hours ago I went on an hour long car ride and did laps around Howell...

I've come to realize I don't appreciate things in life enough. I have a wonderful family, wonderful friends, and a wonderful life. But how come I'm so unhappy some of the time? Well I believe it's that all of us lose focus at some point or another. We forget the things that mean the most to us and only concentrate on the negatives rather than the positives. 

It takes someone with their priorities to understand this all the time. Which are little to no people. Just remember next you get sad, lonely, angry, or disappointed, just remember that in a  day, week, month, or year you'll have something better going on in your life. Just do something that makes you happy.

Tonight I'm going to see It's A Wonderful Life by myself. It's a time I've been looking forward to.

Friends and Ships

Sailing storms, for a hundred year wars.
Making ties after centuries of lies.
Understanding their past, loving real fast.
Look up when put down, go through and not around.

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After the past few months I've realized what is important to me. I know that I cannot make this assumption for everyone, but for most. Friends are key to happiness. Without them it's hard to get by. They share your feelings, your passions, you hatreds, and your decisions. What affects you affects them. My friends are not perfect, but no one is. They help me when they can, which for that I am greatly appreciative. I just hope that when they need me, I'll be there...